Up until 2 1/2 years ago, I NEVER thought I would be in the position I am in right now, which is a homeschool mom of four young children. First of all, I never thought I would have this many kids, and second, I didn’t think we would have a home big enough to school them!. God always seems to lead me down a path I don’t usually expect. I’m sure that’s happened to many of you.
It was about this time that I felt a prompting in my heart to homeschool my children. This thought was quickly snuffed out as I laughed at the idea!. The Enemy has always tried to undercut my self worth, make me feel less capable than everybody else, or dumb. How could I homeschool? I’m not a teacher!. Not too much longer, I felt the same prompting on the subject, only this time, I knew it was the Holy Spirit gently placing this on my heart. Doubt and nervousness filled me up, and as I questioned this new thought, I almost scoffed at God, laughing, saying ” I could never do this”, “you have the wrong person”, ” I AM NOT A TEACHER”.
I soon realized that these were lies I was listening to!, and I know that we have all experienced silly lies like this towards the things God speaks to us. So, I took it upon myself (with the help of my husband) to look into it and do some research about homeschooling. I read so much online, and read so many books, including, you guessed it…. Homeschooling for Dummies!. I started getting excited, interested, and inspired to take on this new journey! I actually thought… “I CAN do this!”
The idea of having my children home with me, teaching them not only academics, but life skills and character, started to truly warm my heart. For when I started thinking about it, I was doing this anyway. As we prayed about this, I was convinced that homeschooling was the direction we were to go. Though I still felt slightly inadequate, God strengthened me with verses like …..
2 Corinthians 12:9 He said to me, ” My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
‘Why did we choose to homeschool?’ Here are just a few of MANY reasons my husband and I went in this direction.
– We wanted to be our kids # 1 influence!
– Deuteronomy 6 :5-9!
– We desired to meet their individual needs and shape their character. Every child is different and unique, and being at home, I am able to do this.
– We were looking at the bigger picture, and had a vision for the future. We hold onto the “why” we are doing this, and keep the end in mind.
So, here I am, a year and a half into my homeschool journey! I have to say that I am loving this, working hard and blessed to be part of my children’s learning! I am learning as I go along as well, but I know that I am in the right place. I’ve also learned to NOT let lies ‘snuff out’ what God has placed on my heart. I encourage you not to dismiss or ‘snuff out’ what you feel the Holy spirit is placing on your heart! It may just be the path God wants you to take, even though you don’t expect it.